Hello Darkness, My old friend

正在準備清華同修集體起訴江澤民的個人材料。

羅列親身經歷的酷刑折磨、尊嚴剝奪、人格摧毀、歲月銷磨、生離死別,時間、地點、經過、施暴人,讓我重新審視經歷的一切。我仍然沒能做到師父要弟子做到的無怨無恨。
十幾年中,在無法伸直身體的囚牀上,多少個夜晚在深沉的仇恨中靜靜入睡。仇恨就象無星無月的大海,黝黑,不知多深。我微笑仰面浮在其上,隨着波浪輕輕搖晃,眼睛閉上了,身體入睡了,內心的眼睛從來沒有合上過,我在盯着它們,記着它們。

仇恨這位老朋友陪我走了很長的路,應該到了告別的時候了。儘管不知道如何才能分手,但我內心知道分別後,等待我的是光明的未來。

I am preparing the personal materials for collectively suing Jiang Zemin by Tsinghua disciples.

It has made me review all I have experienced, to list the torture, respect deprivation, character destruction, loneliness and forbearance in long term, farewells with whom I loved, time, locations, scenarios, abusers… I still cannot bare to have no resentment against anything as what my Master has taught me to do.

In more than ten years of lying on the board, I cannot stretch my body. So many nights passed by when I fell asleep, quietly in deep hatred. The hatred is just like an ocean of which I do not know the depth under the sky without stars and moon. I am afloat on my back, smiling. My body swayed slightly with ripples. My eyes closed and my body fell into sleep while my inner eyes never closed. I have been watching them and remembering everything.

Hatred the old friend has accompanied me for a long time in a long journey and it’s time to say goodbye to it. Although I do not know how to leave, I know the bright future awaits me ahead.

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